I'm so bad at keeping up with this.  Sorry to anyone who likes reading, I've left with you absolutely nothing.

My last update was April 5th.  At the time I was newly single, taking GREs and getting my car fixed.  Well, I've since graduated from college, been working for my mom, and I'm still technically single...Although there is that one boy... ;-)

So like I said, I've graduated.  I now have a Bachelor of Arts Degree in the field of Psychology.  And oh, it feels so good.  I miss everyone already, but you can bet that I'll be back to visit!!

I've been home for about a month.  I've spent a great portion of my time looking for a "real job" in the midst of working for my mother and doing odds and ends jobs for other family members.  I had an interview with Tops Markets on Friday.  It went well, they basically said they'll hire me.  I also have an interview at Truck Lite on Tuesday.  Not the most enjoyable job, but it would be a job and it would be a PAYING job at that.  But neither tops the third interview I have lined up--it's not in my field, but it's most definitely NOT in this town.  In fact, I'm pretty certain that I will be moving to the Harrisburg area within the next few weeks.  That is where the job is, I'm going for my interview this Friday.  It's a little sooner than I thought it would be, my goal was to have a job there at the end of the summer.  But hey, if I don't go now, I probably won't ever leave this godforsaken town, so I'M GOING!!

I think that's all for now...I'll try to keep up, but you know how life goes...

I've been single for a little over 6 weeks now.  I'm in a lot better place than I was in my previous post.  I got to a point where I just didn't care.  Actually, I broke down and talked to him, which resulted in a huge argument and him blocking me on AIM.  So then I couldn't talk to him.  At first I of course was pissed, but then after talking to my good friend J, I realized I deserve SOOOO much better, and then I was fine.  Honest, just like that, I was FINE.  It was like a huge weight lifted, and I just didn't care.  And since then I've been out enjoying myself, meeting new people, and getting reacquainted with people I hadn't talked to in forever.  It's so nice not worrying if what I'm doing is pissing him off.  I do what I want, when I want, with who I want, and I like it that way.

On a happier note...FLORIDA was AWESOME!!  Mom and I had a freakin blast...yes, for those of you who didn't know, I took my mom on Spring Break and it was the BEST idea ever.  I now have more drinking shirts than I know what to do with.  "It's not how deep you fish, it's how you wiggle your worm."  --By far my absolute FAVORITE!!

Six weeks to graduation...the countdown has begun.  Now all I have to do is find a job.  I'm looking around Harrisburg/Hershey area.  If I find something, Cres and I are getting an apartment.  Can you imagine?  That'd be some crazy shit!  Crazy, but oh so fun!!

I took the GREs on Saturday.  Let me just say...they totally kicked my ass.  I can't even put it into words.  I didn't know half the stuff on the test and it wasn't because I didn't really study all that much.  I'd seriously never heard of half the material they were talking about.  Not once in any of my classes...in FOUR YEARS of college!!  I will definitely be spending much time with a textbook in hand after graduation.  And will probably be buying ones with other information as well.  I'm taking a year off, yes, but I'm totally serious about getting into graduate school..that is, of course, the only way I will make all my money. =)

And finally, my car is now fixed...completely fixed.  Mom got it done today, so I will now be her slave for the next few months to help pay for it.  Yay, how I love getting hit on by old guys and being told what I should do with my life.

That's all for now.  God only knows when the next update is coming...Stay tuned!

Well, I've been officially single since Sunday.  Brian and I just had too many issues to work out and decided it was for the best.  I'm still not sure how I feel about it.  I cried alot, then I was angry because I felt like we wasted years and got nothing out of our relationship.  Then I was indifferent and decided to just go out and have fun and meet new people.  And then today I'm cleaning, and I find his Valentine's day card...and enter the tears all over again.

I don't get it...where did we go wrong?  I can't even pinpoint the exact moment that things changed because they hadn't been that great for a while.  Now I guess we'll never know...

People have told me I need to update.  Well there it is, I hope you're happy.  Now back to you, Bob...

"What about your
Your 10,000 promises?
That you gave to me
Your 10,000 promises
That you promised me..."  --Backstreet Boys, "10,000 Promises"

I made it through the first week of classes.  It's now week 2 and I'm beginning to get scared.  Chem Seminar=sucks.  Our grade is based on 2 seminars we have to give ourselves...individually, and class participation.  One seminar must be a total of 25 minutes long, the other a total of 50 minutes long.  HOW AWFUL!!  My topics are Chromatography and Evolution.  Yup, I'm screwed...and not in the good kind of way.  Drugs & Human Behavior, although very unorganized, will probably be an interesting class.  I've heard it's hard, which I can see why.  Dr. Brendel isn't exactly the most organized fellow.  LOL  Intro to Computers=CAKE WALK!!  I like the class, it's busy work, but it'll help keep the GPA up so I can graduate on time.  YAY!!  Experimental Psych...Well I don't really know how I feel about it yet.  I have no interest in doing the actual research, I just want to use it so I can do counseling.  Unfortunately, I don't get a choice because I need this class to graduate.  So, research I will be doing, but on what??  I have no clue and we have a paper due on what we may like to do our final projects on.  Yup, screwed again.  My Theatre Seminar isn't that bad.  We'll just be reading plays written by influential women and writing papers analyzing them.  Not brain surgery, so it'll be okay.  Overall I like my schedule, and the classes REALLY aren't THAT bad, I'm just worried about some possible problem areas.  As always, I'm sure I will prevail.  It's my nature of course.

On the job front, I have yet to look.  The goal was do so this week, but I've had papers I needed to do.  So will have to put that on hold until next week..hopefully.

Going home this weekend.  Cres will be home, too, which is a main reason I am going as well.  And what a weekend I know it will be!!  As it usually is when we get together.  *I heart you my little HBA!!*

I think that's it for now.  Probably more, but nothing I can think of or care to share right now.  Stay tuned, there's more to come...always...

I decided since it's a new year, it's time for a new beginning.  Okay, so yea it's a little past New Year's, give me a break I'm a slacker!  Anyway, I deleted everything, but am definitely keeping the layout.  I love Stewie way too much to change it.

One week left of break.  Don't really know how I feel about that.  I'm excited to graduate in May, of course.  But the thought of going to class makes me cringe beyond belief.  Especially with the courses I'm going to be taking.  My seminars will be a hell of a lot of work, on top of my Research class where I will be expected to be a real research psychologist and conduct my own experiments.  Oh yea, I have to collect my own data and blah blah blah, sounds pretty shitty doesn't it?  Then there's Drugs & Human Behavior (which I've heard is pretty hard).  The only class I'm REALLY looking forward to?  Intro to Computers.  Why you ask?  HELLO!  Easy A!!  Hopefully that class will help keep my gpa (as well as my qpa) above my hard-earned 3.0.

People keep asking me what I'm going to do after I graduate.  I tell them I'm gonna get a job.  The response?  Oh, well you should keep going.  Go get your masters.  Go do this.  Hey people, how about you pucker up and kiss my ass??  I've had enough of school to last me for at least 1 year, and BELIEVE ME, when I say I'm going back for my masters, I freaking mean it.  I'm not one of those dumbasses that says yea yea I'll go back eventually.  I have plans.  Little slow to the start but I WILL get where I want to be.  And by the way, who made those people my advisors?  Last time I checked, it was Dr. Cloud.  And thankfully, he's been the only supportive of my decision.  According to him, if I'm not ready, then I should wait.  I'm glad SOMEONE sees it my way.  There's nothing wrong with taking a break and going back.  People do it all the time and succeed, why can't I??  I'm sick of people telling me what they think is best for me.  They don't know me, they don't know what I'm capable of, they don't know what I want.  However, I DO!!  So to all you who think that I want your advice on life, save it for someone who really WANTS to hear it, because I don't need it.  I know what I want, what I have to do to get it, and that is what really matters.

Now that I've ranted, I'm going to bed.  Nail appointment in the morning. P.S. that just happens to be my New Year's Resolution (again)--finally I AM going to let my nails grow.  Come hell or high water, I will have nice, long, pretty nails by the time I go to Florida in March.  That's the goal, we'll see how well I stick to it.

“Love isn’t finding the perfect person; it’s finding the imperfect person perfect.”